Diary of a Fat Man

Microsoft Rocks

2/21/2006 12:57:03 PM
Never in a million years did I ever think that those words would come out of mouth, other than in a totally ironic way.  I admit I was a M$ basher for the longest time.  Sure, the software is super bloated; but it's so easy to use!
 
I spent about six hours yesterday sorting through, literally, a thousand pictures for a slide show that I'm doing this weekend for Evan's Cub Scout group.  I used M$ Picture It (which was a free download) to organize the pics.  I then used M$ Photo Story 3 to do the fancy picture motions/transitions and to add the soundtrack.  Then I used M$ Movie Maker 2 to piece together the stuff from Photo Story and to add titles and crawls and shit like that.  It was tedious stuff, but made about 1000 times easier with M$'s help.  There are a few things that could improve the functionality in Photo Story, but hopefully an update version will fix those little nuisances.
 
Now to the fun stuff.
 
Right now I feel like I'm in bullet time, watching my car careening into a bridge abutment...an almost never happening car wreck, but inevitable nontheless.  Everyday I have the best intentions with my eating, but I totally fuck up.  I'm seeing the weight slowly creep it's way back on.  My clothes are getting tighter and tighter.  But, I can't fucking stop.  It's insane.  I know what I need to do, but I just can't muster the willpower to do it.
 
What strange power does food hold over me?  Nutritive powers aside, why can't I feel satiated eating good and healthy foods and in portions that aren't overkill for a family of Haitians? 
 
Am I expecting too much?  It was so fucking easy for the four months that I didn't cheat.  It really didn't bother me at all.  Why all the difficulty now?
 
It's just annoying the hell out of me...and making me sound like a whiney bitch.

Comments

- 2/21/2006 8:38:00 PM

I've always found the easiest way to cut back on my intake is to stop buying groceries.  It's a great money saver to boot!  Unfortunately, you would face the wrath of your famished family, and that may not be worth the pain and suffering =)

 

~Carrie

- 2/22/2006 9:39:59 AM
Hi Chris, I've been reading you for quite a while but have never posted any comments. Thank you for the entertaining posts, you crack me up like only a few people can.
On the WW 'on the wagon, off the wagon deal', I can totally relate to your story. I started in May of last year and consistently lost weight until November. I've lost/gained the same 5 pounds since then. I can't figure out why it's so difficult to keep doing what I did before. The only reason that I can find at this point in my case is the short days vs. longer days. I went to the gym almost every night after work and when I was done at 7PM or so there was still a bit of light out and it felt right to go home to eat dinner with my husband. Now, it is 5:30pm when I get off work and it's already starting to get dark and all I want to do is go home and OVER eat dinner with my husband. It's freaking ridiculous! Since spring is coming up soon I might be able to prove or bust my theory. In my the meantime, I keep on trying....you do the same!
Billie ... - 2/22/2006 9:53:29 AM
I think if any of us had the answers to why it is so hard to keep the weight off... that person would be a millionaire.  I am trying to get to the gym 3 x a week and eating healthy but the weight is just creeping back on! ARGH!!!
 
Maybe it is a winter thing.
 
Billie
Aynde - 2/22/2006 10:41:19 AM
I WISH I had the answers!  I tend to do the same thing.  I've lost 10 pounds but keeping it off is becoming a challenge because it's hard to keep up the change in diet.  Especailly if you have a hubby and kids that don't want to eat salads and broiled chicken 7 days a week.   Hell I don't want to do that either. 
I have a big pile of weight I need to lose and sometimes it seems hopeless.  It's helped not looking at it in the long term and taking it day by day but it seems like day by day there is a temptaion I can't resist.  UGH.